skinny love

so basically

my life at the moment is shit. 

my sister is out of control and driving me and my family insane.

My sister drinks smokes and shit and beats up my parents and then i forget to take the rubbish out and my parents yell and yell at me. 

I’ve been feeling tired and sad all the time. 

I keep feeling like crying randomly at school 

today i cut myself when my dad broke a door in my house. 

my sister and my dad were being really unfair and interrupting me while i was trying to study so i got really angry at them and locked them in a room. the room as a toilet and tv and stuff and they were in there anyway  but as soon as i locked the door dad kicked it down. I was going to unlock it. 

i think just all the stuff ive been building up inside me came out today. I cut my wrist because i didnt know what else to do. 

it was kind of a release. 

im scared im going to hurt myself more. 

i dont want to but i think i will. 

its almost like im not me anymore. 

i never go out with friends and when i do i dont want to be there anyway. 

whats wrong with me I’ve never been like this. 

i know no one is reading this and if they are they dont care but I just needed to write this down somewhere.